I’m tired of living in a shell. Veiling my
true identity with someone who is just there to please
everyone else but myself.
How do I break away from that
without losing everyone that I love?
In my parent's mind, and some
of my friends, I shouldn’t have tattoos or piercings. I should wear dresses
or skirts more often. I shouldn’t play
sports. I should cook more often.
I should wear my hair up.
I should lose weight.
I shouldn’t wear sneakers as often.
I shouldn’t listen to rock or metal, etc.
It frustrates me because it’s like
I’m being stripped of what makes me unique, of what
makes me who I am.
I’m tired of the ordinary.
More importantly,
I’m tired of pretending
as if I'm ordinary.
I feel like my whole life
I’ve been trying to fill
in the shoes of a perfectly
traditional daughter who solely
exists for everyone’s satisfaction
except her own. I want my reflection
to show who I am, and not who
everyone else wants me to be.
Is that too much to ask?
-R.
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