Bipolar Disorder & Psychosis

Being Depressed.

It's losing all your friends and gaining an enemy whom you have somehow fallen in love with because it became a part of you. The black shadow that follows you. The relationship to your bed  grows stronger than any relationship you have ever had and you forget who you are. It's a feeling that you can't just "brush off." You want to talk about it, but you don't. You constantly hear that you can't be sad because someone has it worse. But what about you? Crying to God, asking him why you? But the funny s*** is that you don't even remember believing in him. What is depression? It's a cold, a tumor, a parasite, a broken hand. You can't just get over it...

Living with Mania

Wanting to jump off a f****** building because I saw it in a movie and, yup, it looked cool! And buying a yacht because you always wanted one. Its having sex with everyone because, hell, they look great! Feeling like you are high every moment of everyday! Mania isn't being happy, it's dangerous. And honestly, I just rather be depressed.

I have Bipolar Disorder. I does not mean I am a monster, or a weirdo. It just means that I am really really happy, or really really sad. I dealt with it, so can you.

- Julie L.